ABOUT ME

I Discovered Cooking at Age 8

I remember mixing my mother’s talcum powder and eggs together to see what would happen. As I became more experienced in the kitchen, my mother let me take over making the meals. I was so happy because it was something I was good at and I enjoyed it! When I was a teenager, I became a chronic scale watcher who was obsessed with weight – to the point where I was verging on a serious eating disorder. I would binge eat and reduce my food intake because I wanted to stay thin. I was not overweight, I just enjoyed the control I had over my body, and how it worked. This way of thinking became my ‘normal’ for a while.

During that time, my self-esteem centered around managing my weight. The number on the scale would yo-yo. Up, down, up, down. I was mesmerized by the numbers on the scale! I was caught in a toxic cycle. Food governed my life in an unhealthy way, and I hurt myself by bingeing and then restricting myself with food.

I thought that being thin was the ideal. As I grew older, I began to feel stressed out about being stressed over my weight, which was normal for my age. I realized I had to stop worrying. One day I realized that I was enough! I was/AM great just the way I was! It was many years later that I learned that what I was doing was serious. I transformed my eating patterns by knowing I was enough and took positive actions which empowered me. Before I looked outward for approval and now I look inward for approval. I learned to love myself.

• I used food to reward myself
• I used food to feel perfect
• I use food to fit in as I thought being thin was the ideal.

It was a very stressful time

I was obsessed with food in a negative way. On the outside, I was the model child, but on the inside, I was distracted by the pursuit of perfection.

I Discovered Cooking at Age 8

I remember mixing my mother’s talcum powder and eggs together to see what would happen. As I became more experienced in the kitchen, my mother let me take over making the meals. I was so happy because it was something I was good at and I enjoyed it! When I was a teenager, I became a chronic scale watcher who was obsessed with weight – to the point where I was verging on a serious eating disorder. I would binge eat and reduce my food intake because I wanted to stay thin. I was not overweight, I just enjoyed the control I had over my body, and how it worked. This way of thinking became my ‘normal’ for a while.

During that time, my self-esteem centered around managing my weight. The number on the scale would yo-yo. Up, down, up, down. I was mesmerized by the numbers on the scale! I was caught in a toxic cycle. Food governed my life in an unhealthy way, and I hurt myself by bingeing and then restricting myself with food.

I thought that being thin was the ideal. As I grew older, I began to feel stressed out about being stressed over my weight, which was normal for my age. I realized I had to stop worrying. One day I realized that I was enough! I was/AM great just the way I was! It was many years later that I learned that what I was doing was serious. I transformed my eating patterns by knowing I was enough and took positive actions which empowered me. Before I looked outward for approval and now I look inward for approval. I learned to love myself.

• I used food to reward myself
• I used food to feel perfect
• I use food to fit in as I thought being thin was the ideal.

It was a very stressful time

I was obsessed with food in a negative way. On the outside, I was the model child, but on the inside, I was distracted by the pursuit of perfection.